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Friday, April 29th, 2005
2:56 am	it is funny because i have found myself only going back to these blog sites when i'm drunk and wanting to find out what is going on in the lives of those i am too anti-social to talk to via phone or in person. anyways, i think livejournal is crap along with myspace.com (the lj of 2005) so i think i'll really get off this shit this time. i'm too old for web blogs of this nature. in a period of my life when connecting with new people online isn't my #1 priority and who wants to "add me as a friend" or who wants to comment on my blogs isn't a priority, i find these (what i now believe to be) juvenile pages obsolete. i can relay my daily happenings via word of mouth. A semi-comprehensive evalution of another's life via web-blog feels completely unnecessary when another's daily life is no more than a phone-call or visit away. the internet is a great tool for accessing information on topics quickly, but it is no substitute for a real-life, real-time interaction with another human being that someone calls a "friend." (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, March 14th, 2005
8:47 pm	i don't do anything anymore. besides work and cuddle with my love, that is about the extent of my life. i don't answer my phone, i don't call people back, silentium is pretty much dead, avoided is going to shit what with heroin addicts and chode-ass drummers. it isn't that i'm not happy - i'm fucking ecstatic in my life - it is the best i've felt in a while. it is just that being 24, graduated from college, and still working two dead-end jobs (both of which i'm highly overqualified for), i feel as though something isn't right. so do i go to law school? do i go do the sound engineering thing i wanted to do before i went to "real" college? do i get some crap-ass career just to appease my father? (that one is a definite no). what is success? if you make $100,000 a year, but hate your life, are you successful? if you start up your own company (such as the awesome as shit vegan store on oakland or the 100% fair trade coffee place on farwell), but your business is doing terrible, are you successful? are you successful if you are only remembered for a few generations past your death in only the memories of your children and grand-children, or are you successful if you leave behind some monument like the eiffel tower? what if you leave behind a monument (such as a landmark or historic building), but no-one knows that you built it. i don't want to be forgotten after i die. Current Mood: contemplative (Comment on this)
Thursday, December 23rd, 2004
9:29 pm	despite the fact that i never post in this damn thing anymore, i just thought that on this very cold and very boring night at work in the desolation of uwm that I'M A FUCKING GRADUMATE!!! i just got my B+ in for my social psych class (the only one i needed to graduate) and i am official. first i was sad to be graduating, then it was a relief, now i am fucking excited as shit! Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: computer hum (17 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, July 16th, 2004
10:46 am	this guy doesn't and has never ever ever done well with change. so right now sucks. kaelin moved out, but we were never really close, so it wasn't bad. then jenny moved out, which sucks hard cause i miss sitting on the kitchen floor smoking cigarettes and drinking coffee with her in the morning. now heavy b is leaving today. we had one last dumpster run last night for nostalgia purposes. we didn't get much (some salt and pepper shakers shaped like teacups and a weird bear or dog costume thingy), but nonetheless it was fun as shit. and now he's leaving, meaning the house is only me and ireland. woopdyfuckingdoo. this blows hard. i hate silence, even if no one is out and about in the house, it is still nice to know that someone is there or is coming home soon. Current Mood: gloomy Current Music: some crap with double bass from ireland's room (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 14th, 2004
12:22 pm	note to self 856,987: you are not a slut, nor can you pull off being a slut, so stop trying, because it doesn't ever ever ever make you feel any better about being alone, in fact it makes you more depressed, so stop already. Current Mood: morose Current Music: get up kids - something to write home about (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 13th, 2004
1:29 am	experiments in sobriety so after realizing that i may be ingesting alcohol to excess, i've decided to take a few days off of drinking. specifically, tonight, wednesday, and thursday. simultaneously, i've decided to attempt to quit smoking (again). so to sum everything up right now, i'm going kinda nuts. i don't really know exactly what to do. at least i'm getting housework done. and a lot of it. Current Mood: discontent (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, July 12th, 2004
1:49 am	wholly shit. apparently, the vibrators are playing in chicago on 9/14 at the fireside bowl. fucking amazing. Current Mood: dirty Current Music: azure ray (1 Comment |Comment on this)
1:38 am	bryan + whiskey + black label + coke + pot = disasterous evening. note to self: never do that combination ever again. i was going places in my head that i wasn't really going to. fucking scary as hell. i couldn't even record today cause i was so fucking destroyed. on the plus side, got a kiss at the bar from the gorgeous girl with pink/black hair. yeah, so i'm a dork and know it. Current Mood: okay Current Music: yellowcard (Comment on this)
Saturday, July 10th, 2004
3:21 pm	emo day happy one year of being girlfriendless to me. Current Mood: blah Current Music: yellowcard (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, July 9th, 2004
9:08 pm	so lj has a community dedicated to white power. there isn't anything on it and no members, but it is still there. i wouldn't think that the moderators of this site would be cool with that. Current Mood: bored (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, June 24th, 2004
1:37 am	hrm... $2.00 cover + 6 beers (at $0.25 a piece) + one $0.50 tip = $4.00 ... not bad in addition music including: the faint the cure the smiths fischerspooner depeche mode lords of acid i think i will be hitting up that establishment more often, despite the fact of not knowing anyone and going home alone. cute girl never showed up.... "bestest friend" never said goodbye nor has called since... seriously, no money... dumpsters prove bagels mixed with coffee grounds and corn thrown out, husked, but without any bag... food, cigarette, and booze supplies dangerously low with absolutely $0.00 in bank account... strangely missing people i never thought i would miss like that ever again... being in constant limbo about my position at the 8th note, while still booking shows for next semester, yet not knowing if i'm still "allowed" to... wishing i had someone to cuddle with that i actually cared about... not getting anywhere on booking the avoided tour for august... being lonely... Current Mood: drunk Current Music: heller~mason (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, June 18th, 2004
1:13 am	so t5his ke8yboard is all fu7cke8re8d if you7 can't5 t5e8ll cauy7se8 it5 pu7t5s random nu7mbe8rs aft5e8r ce8rt5ain le8t5t5e8r, spe8cifically u7, t5, and e8. i t5hink i'm going t5o poo on myse8lf now. Current Mood: drunk Current Music: cars on t5he8 st5re8e8t5 (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, June 17th, 2004
1:22 pm	HOLY FUCKING SHIT! Best show ever... ever. i can die happy now. Current Mood: satisfied Current Music: skinny puppy - last rights (Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 16th, 2004
10:41 am	Skinny Puppy Day! Skinny puppy skinny puppy skinny puppy skinny skinny skinny puppy puppy puppy skinny puppy skinny skinny puppy puppy skinny puppy skinny puppy skinny puppy skinny skinny skinny skinny puppy puppy puppy puppy skinny puppy skinny puppy skinny puppy skinny puppy skinny puppy skinny skinny puppy puppy skinny skinny skinny puppy puppy puppy skinny puppy skinny puppy skinny puppy skinny puppy skinny skinny puppy puppy skinny puppy skinny puppy skinny puppy skinny puppy skinny skinny puppy puppy Skinny puppy skinny puppy skinny puppy skinny skinny skinny puppy puppy puppy skinny puppy skinny skinny puppy puppy skinny puppy skinny puppy skinny puppy skinny skinny skinny skinny puppy puppy puppy puppy skinny puppy skinny puppy skinny puppy skinny puppy skinny puppy skinny skinny puppy puppy skinny skinny skinny puppy puppy puppy skinny puppy skinny puppy skinny puppy skinny puppy skinny skinny puppy puppy skinny puppy skinny puppy skinny puppy skinny puppy skinny skinny puppy puppy Current Mood: ecstatic Current Music: barbara streisand (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 15th, 2004
2:01 am	in rare form so we had silentium practice tonight with a very drunk rachel and very drunk johnson. usually i am the very drunk one. after two nights of being the sober one around a lot of drunk people, i suddenly realize how irritated i get by them. it is ironic too, cause i'm usually the drunk one. so i try to catch up to their state of drunk, but it doesn't really work and i just get more annoyed and more intorverted. hrm. this is a very interesting development indeed. Current Mood: cynical Current Music: drunken sing alongs to *barf* radiohead (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, June 7th, 2004
1:27 pm	making dumpstered stuffed pablano peppers with corn, black beans, tabasco chipotle sauce and goat cheese. thank you sendiks Current Mood: excited Current Music: people gettin' high in the kitchen (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, June 6th, 2004
8:34 am	you know... you help the cokehead out once and then all of a sudden he's at your front door at fucking 8:30 in the goddamn morning, asking how his crap-ass shit was and if you want to buy some musical equiptment off the guy next to him. jesus fucking christ. Current Mood: pissed off Current Music: tweek chirping (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, June 4th, 2004
10:03 pm	HOT!!! THE CURE INTERPOL THE RAPTURE MOGWAI WITH THURSDAY MUSE MELISSA AUF DER MAUR CURSIVE COOPER TEMPLE CLAUSE AND HEAD AUTOMATICA ON THE SECOND STAGE... Curiosa Festival 04 The idea for a Festival Tour came up last September during our rehearsals for the KROQ show. We found ourselves really looking forward to playing with a lot of other bands we like and thought "Why not put our own festival together and take it out on the road next year?". We spent the winter putting the bill together and think we've come up with the perfect summer day out. There will be two stages and the bands will alternate; the running order on the main stage will stay the same but the second stage will evolve as the tour progresses. There will also be other stuff going on at every show - any suggestions you might have please email us...thecure@thecure.com. Some of the dates are still to be confirmed but we will announce them here as soon as they are definite. We hope you will all enjoy being a part of the Curiosa Festival 2004 experience... love The Cure xxxxx 7/24 - Sound Advice Amphitheater, West Palm Beach, FL 7/25 - Tampa Amphitheater, Tampa, FL 7/28 - Starwood Amphitheater, Nashville, TN 7/29 - HiFi Buys Amphitheater, Atlanta, GA 7/31 - Randall's Island, New York, NY 8/1 - Tweeter Center, Camden, NJ 8/3 - Riverbend Music Center, Cincinnati, OH 8/4 - Blossom Music Center, Cuyahoga Falls, OH 8/6 - Merriweather Post Pavilion, Columbia, MD 8/7 - Tweeter Center for the Perf. Arts, Mansfield, MA 8/9 - The Molson Amphitheater, Toronto, ON, Canada 8/11 - DTE Energy Music Theater, Clarkson, MI 8/12 - Tweeter Center, Tinley Park, IL 8/14 -Smirnoff Music Center, Dallas, TX 8/15 - Cynthia Woods Mitchell Pavilion, Spring, TX 8/17 - Coors Amphitheater, Denver, CO 8/18 - USANA Amphitheater,West Valley City, UT 8/21 - Seattle, WA 8/24 - Coors Amphitheater, San Diego, CA 8/25 - Cricket Amphitheater, Phoenix, AZ 8/27 - Home Depot Center, Carson, CA 8/28 - San Francisco, CA 8/29 - Sacramento, CA THIS IS NOT THE FINAL LIST OF DATES... Current Mood: drunk Current Music: soul caliber as played by the roomies (Comment on this)
Saturday, May 29th, 2004
7:09 pm	old guy at a&j liquors counter: one pint of OT please reed: that's the drink, brother old guy: that is the drink, when i'm at the clubs i be ordering hennesy, but when i'm out on the prowl, it's OT. ok, just really funny shit Current Mood: drunk Current Music: pulp fiction (Comment on this)
Thursday, May 20th, 2004
12:31 am	end of the semester... all of a sudden, apparently not welcome in the company of those whom i have welcomed into my home with open arms. so fuck 'em all. my summer plans? time in oshkosh, time in minneapolis, time in my bedroom, time drunk, time on tour, maybe even time in portland if i can swing it (jane called tonight and totally made my night). i'm feeling less and less connected to this city as years go by, so maybe that is a good thing. it'll be easier to leave, easier to travel, and easier to not have anything to look back on and miss. Current Mood: aggravated (3 Comments |Comment on this)